Astrology usually annoys me. OMG my vague horoscope *totally* captures my life right now!! They’re fun to read but they’re so vague and general that it never really seems like a coincidence when they seem like they apply to my life. But after I kept hearing people talking about Mercury being in retrograde, I had to google it because I was tired of not knowing what they were talking about.
Before I talk about what I found out, let me talk about my last few weeks. I rarely have full on panic attacks. Yes, I get anxious but its typically under control. I had two full-blown, crying-heart-pounding-sweating-can’t-catch-my-breath ones this month. I haven’t been able to fall asleep (something that is never a problem for me) and I have just generally been feeling sluggish. Old friendship issues that I could swear I got over resurfaced and dramatically impacted my emotions. I cried on the subway Friday night. Not cute. I mean, I’m not typically the most outgoing person but getting out of bed has been a challenge, as has getting myself to prepare and eat full meals. I’ve just been feeling off.
And I swear to God it’s because Mercury is in retrograde. I swear. Scientifically, it’s when Mercury’s orbital path is behind that of the Earth and it looks like it’s moving backward. It’s been happening since the beginning of this month and will end Friday. But the whole thing is that it’s a period to reflect on relationships (my old friendships coming back to haunt me), as well as for travel plans to go awry (snowstorms in ATL and NYC right before I’m supposed to travel?? forgetting my card and cash the day I need to take a subway home??), as well as just a general sense of things going wrong. DING DING DING. This year, Mercury goes retrograde in Aquarius (right now), Cancer and Scorpio (can’t wait for that birthday bash…), and these three houses are the ones most directly and intensely impacted by the celestial shift. And guess who’s a little Scorp??
It sounds like a load of shit at first, but it’s kind of hard not to blame it when everything feels so off for no reason. I feel like the stupidest person on the planet saying it, but who really cares? I’m having a tough little month and I’m glad it’s almost over so I can get on with my life.
Happy (almost) end of Mercury Retrograde,world! See you again in the summer. Hopefully this doesn’t impact my move down south.