The “Aha” Moment

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It goes without saying that this year was one of the toughest on me. College as a whole was kind of not what I expected. I’m not the type to go out all the time or constantly be hanging out with other friends. Until this semester I was always dying to go home by the end. Throughout my struggles, my mom constantly assured me I would get there. College would be fun for me, once I found the right people. She continually told me a story of how she started hanging out with her roommate and her boyfriend her senior year and finally found herself thinking these are the people I’ve been looking for.

Having the year I had, I was certain I’d never have that. I’d never have a close friend, let alone a group of friends. But just in time for the end of the year, everything is falling into place. On one of my last nights at school, I found myself eating nachos with my future roommate and her boyfriend and a few of their friends and I laughed like I’ve never laughed. And when they had conversations, deep conversations, I didn’t feel awkward or left out. I finally felt like I belonged.

Unfortunately, there are less than two nights left of my junior year, but nevertheless, I am still unbelievably happy to have found a group of people I feel like I can accept and count on. I’ve always been jealous of my Rochester friends who have such close relationships with their friends at school, and I am unbelievably happy to have that for myself, despite it being a few years late.

And So It Ended: Junior Year

Thursday marks the last day of classes for my junior year in college. This year was nothing like I thought it would be. It has had some of my happiest moments as well as some of my lowest.

I’m so happy to have gotten to make new friends. Breaking out of my shell and introducing myself to different friend groups has always been a challenge for me, but the people I have met and the friends I have made are completely worth it. I’m so lucky to have met so many wonderful people who genuinely care about me and I can’t wait to see them next year. I even have plans to see some over the summer.

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Conversely, I am so sad to have had some really close friends walk out of my life. Junior year was hard in a lot of ways, but this was one of the bigger ones. I’m sure to miss them from time to time, and I also hope that my senior year can be a fresh start for all of us. Losing friends and growing apart is a huge part of life, and I’m just glad that I’ve been able to grow closer to others in the process.

Academically, this year challenged me. A lot. First semester I gave my all and ended up with just satisfactory grades. Second semester was full of art projects, some of which truly challenged (and frustrated me).Screen Shot 2013-05-01 at 6.10.01 PM

Not being on the cheer team anymore was an added challenge. I love my freedom, and will never regret my decision to walk away, but the loss of 20 automatic friends was hard. But not as hard as giving all of my free time and energy to Fordham Cheer.

Professionally, I had a few great internships and opportunities but I still don’t know what I want to do with my life. I think I’m okay with it. Life has a funny way of working out for me and I’m excited to see what my senior year holds for me.

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This is me around the end of Junior year….of high school. so much has changed…and so much hasn’t.

In terms of being a senior in college, I have mixed feelings. For one, how did that happen? How can I possibly be a senior in college when I can so clearly remember being a senior in high school? Senior year is no doubt the most fun and exciting, but I’m not sure I’m mentally prepared for people to start asking me what I’m doing. Because honestly, I ask myself the same question every day with no real answer yet.

I am super excited to turn 21 in 173 days (otherwise known as an eternity) and to have an apartment to decorate and hang out in without constantly being afraid of getting written up.

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Heading into Senior Year together!

This is the first year I’ve been sad to leave school. I can’t wait for a break and to be at home and to see Andrew more than once a month, but I’m also excited for what’s in store next year. :)

Just In Time

I am (proudly) a pretty healthy person. I eat really healthy most of the time, I work out, I even take a daily gummy vitamin. However, the stress of final projects and papers combined with a drunken less than nutritious weekend and lack of sleep has rendered me completely worn out and sick.

Typically, even if I miss out on a bunch of sleep during the week, my body will compensate on the weekend by crashing and allowing me to sleep upwards of 12 hours in one night. However, Spring Weekend was a long and tough one and I’ve been left to face finals week with a sinus infection. Gross, I know.

So between packing up my apartment and soaking up my last weeks as a junior I will be (trying) to recover. Because the only thing worse than being sick during finals is being sick during summer vacation.